My Story
LETTING GO TO FIND IT ALL
In 2009, after dealing with dishonesty and being treated delusional by my husband, I made the toughest decision of my life. I left a marriage of almost seven years and two boys whom I loved like my own.
I no longer recognized the woman staring back at me in the mirror. She was so insecure and despised her overweight body. She was so unhappy and emotionally exhausted from constantly walking on eggshells in this marriage.
Finally, I stopped listening to my head, wondering how others would judge me for my decision to leave my family, and followed my heart to find peace.
I finally chose my happiness first. It felt so damn selfish.
Slowly, something inside of me began to shift. I had broken free from what felt like a ball and chain. Not only had I shed a lot of my physical body, but I had begun to shed the emotional baggage I had been carrying around. I had been praying to God for guidance on where to go from here. I was searching for answers.
Who am I outside of a victim of divorce?
What do I want to be?
In July 2010, I was introduced to an experiential training called Great Life. I knew nothing about it before my friend simply saying, he knew of this great training that would help me find out who I was without my bullshit stories. He asked if I trusted him. Of course, I trusted him, we had spent countless hours discussing our past relationships, and he knew how lost I felt.
That warm July morning, along with a group of strangers, I walked into an empty room full of chairs. The room was cold and smelled like an old classroom. As I sat myself down in a chair close to the middle of the room, I could feel all my nerves coming alive like a hot wire.
What the hell had I got myself into?
I took a deep breath and reminded myself to trust this could be what I had been looking for. The facilitator began to ask us our stories and why we were there.
My answer… I just wanted to find out who I truly was. Little did I know during this three-part training to find myself, I had to find out who I wasn’t.
My entire belief system was tested just by permitting myself to ask, “Does this belief truly work for me, and does it belong to me?”
I found out the organized religion I had been a member of since birth no longer served me, and it wasn’t my truth to be a part of it. I realized it was ok for me to walk away, and I wasn’t going to hell.
I learned I didn’t need to be the victim of divorce. I could let go of the negative feelings toward my ex-husband, and I accepted my accountability in our marriage ending.
I began to accept all the experiences and pieces that made me who I am, embracing the dark and the light. I slowly learned how to let go of the guilt of leaving the boys and accept those six and a half years together were my season to be in their lives, and I can continue to have a relationship with them.
What I found in myself was a powerful woman who, after letting go of her insecurities of feeling unworthy, now stands confident.
A beautiful woman who loves herself fully and unapologetically.
A courageous woman who can do hard things.
And an inspiring woman who shows up authentically, creating love and freedom all around her.
It was as if I was rebirthed. I found the real Lisa.
I had to let go of the person who I thought I was to make space for the authentic woman I am today.
Each day as I chose to show up for myself and continue to solidify my new belief that I am a powerful, beautiful, courageous, inspiring woman, my light and my radiance began to glow. I began to fully love who I was becoming. The darkness surrounding my soul lifted. I had returned home in my body.
Shifting my mindset from being a victim and unworthy to grace, forgiveness, and acceptance, my transformational journey surged.
After completing the Great Life training, I knew with my whole being my soul purpose work on this earth was to help people experience this same exhilarating freedom to love themselves unapologetically.
Freedom is found when we find who we are outside of our stories.
In questioning our true beliefs, we can objectively look at our stories and the emotions attached to them. When we can open-mindedly look at our stories, we are no longer the victim but are free to live our true self authentically.
This is what I am here to do.
My life’s purpose work is to guide you in letting go of imprisoned emotions attached to your life stories so you feel confident in yourself and calm in your body. Through somatic healing techniques, I will guide you in regaining your sovereignty so you may be free to love your life unapologetically.
THE WORLD NEEDS OUR BRILLIANT RADIANCE TO HEAL COLLECTIVELY.
Are you ready to shine?